The way things are

Life is a really hard game. The pieces keep falling out of those teeny little cars!

Friday, May 30, 2008

Two weeks

Two weeks from today I will be a married lady. I can't believe it's so close. We've been waiting since January. Actually, to be honest, we've been waiting for a lot longer than that even. And it's finally coming.

I'm not nervous. Jacob is my best friend. I have never gotten sick of being around him, and he rarely irritates me. We've talked about the wedding night and I'm not really nervous for that either. I'm looking forward to it actually.

I went through the temple a few weeks ago and got to go to my brother's sealing. Both were wonderful. In fact, I went to the temple again last week, and I look forward to going many more times.

It's been stressful though, as I've mentioned before. But things have been working themselves out, and there really is only one last big thing to take care of before we tie the knot--setting up our car insurance. Everything else is taken care of. Heavenly Father has really been blessing us. Even the other day when we realized we bought a mattress that is too big for the bed frame, things worked out and we now have a wonderful bed (don't worry, he's not sleeping there yet--just me).

Our friends have been great too. We've already gotten a ton of presents, some from people we barely know. It's way nice. It's like graduation, times a hundred.

I will be grateful when it's all over though. For the past five months there has always been some little thing that needs to be taken care of, some little worry in the back of my mind. Even now it's just the little things that get so annoying. And I hope everything goes smoothly the day of the wedding and the few days preceding it.

Also I've been getting really annoyed with my parents. It's gotten to the point where I don't look forward to calling them, and when they call, I usually have to convince myself to answer. I know they just want to make sure everything gets done and that we're prepared to be married, but sometimes I feel like they treat me like a little kid, and it drives me nuts. I am excited to be independent of them. Also sometimes I wish they were a little more open-minded. I won't complain too much though. They are paying for a lot of this wedding and they've done a lot to help us get off to a good start. I really do appreciate it and I'm grateful that they were able and willing to help. I just think the wedding is straining our relationship a little, so it will be nice when it's all done with.

Jacob has been amazing though. He's offered his help and opinions when I've needed them, and on stressful days he has pampered and spoiled me. He's understanding when I tell him I'm too tired to stay very long at night, or when I want to go to lunch with a friend. And on our days off he has spent every moment with me and we've had a lot of fun. He is the best and I'm so excited to be married to him. I know he's going to be a wonderful husband.

And then after the honeymoon I have to start classes. Yuck. Oh well, life has to go on I suppose. :)

Sunday, May 11, 2008

I'm not dead yet

Hey everyone I know I never post anymore and I apologize. I've never been so stressed for such a long period of time. A month or so ago a friend of mine sarcastically said my life must be so hard planning to get married for eternity. I wanted to smack her. Planning a wedding is a happy thing, but it is very stressful, and when you have finals, and then a death in the family, and you're working full time, and two of your best friends are getting married a month before you, and your brother is getting married a month before you, it gets pretty stressful.

So I'm sorry I haven't posted. I'm in California right now and I miss Jacob like crazy. I'll be back on Wednesday though, an I get to take out my endowments. Yay!

After this week (my brother's wedding), life will be a lot calmer until we get married. I'll be a lot more available to hang out.

Hope everyone is well! :)